Untitled (Heart)

I want to have a--
Regenerated. Strengthened. Enlightened. Tested. Faith. Trust. Love. Fear. Zeal. Joyful. Clean. Pure. Sincere. Repentant. Devout. Wise. Tender. Holy. Compassionate. Lowly--

Heart.

A heart that never relies on its own truths to solidify my will into going by emotions that merely confuses my mind, while it jogs back on memories once told; therefore causing my conscience to second, triple guess what is being proclaimed to be of God, when in reality my flesh is binding me to a guaranteed hell.
    For, as I once heard, I just want God’s word to just keep stabbing the heart, while the flesh keeps on yelling, “I can’t get her to stop!”
Then for Him to surgically remove this heart, then fill this God-shaped hole in my chest with the Living Word--the Scripture--while pumping the true Living Blood through my veins.
    Proverbs 14:30 says that a sound heart is life to the body , and according to His word, we are the body of Christ.
    So, if my body doesn’t want to function, and doesn’t have life, wouldn’t that mean that the heart isn’t going to function right?
    So in other words, I would have a--
Lazy. Careless. Weak. Dim. Failing. Faithless. Lying. Fearless. Hateful. Hurting. Resentful. False. Foolish. Hardened. Deceitful. Doubtful. Self-Centered--

Heart.

    So then my heart would rely on it’s own truths to solidify my own will into going by emotions that don’t confuse my mind, but jogs back on memories once told; therefore causing my conscience to never second, triple guess my “good,” which means my flesh won’t bind me to hell. Right?
    I mean think about it
    It’s just a heart.
    You know, an organ that sits behind the rib cage, pumping blood throughout the body so that we may live.
    No, it is not just…a…heart.
    We are talking about the spiritual description of an organ in our body that’s being illustrated an instrument as to how we function.
    [For] the heart is deceitful above all things
    [But] through the peace of God, that surpasses all understanding, [He] will guard your [heart]s and [mind]s through Christ Jesus.
    And blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
    For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.
    For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.
    Therefore, I say to you, where does your heart stand?
    Therefore, I say to you, where does your heart stand?